I, currently, watched 'Eat, Pray, Love' and while she was emailing David she said that. It reminded me of numerous times in my life when I felt the need to 'Start over.' The first time was the adoption. I rid myself of all negative energy, my bf, my friends, my life. I moved into a new house and I was in a constant moving pattern. I knowingly got involved with a guy I shouldn't have, at the same time I was becoming a pen pal with an Army guy. I just refused to let anything keep me planted. I gave my own child up for adoption so I needed to prove to myself that I had reason. I flew to PA, Albany, NY, I took a bus practically to Canada, I traveled to Seattle.
I did things I wouldn't have done without the push. Of course I only did them in a 3 year time span. By the time I moved to Denver my life was OUT OF CONTROL. I was acting like a fool. I thought I would move to Denver and my life would be magically fixed. I thought ok so I am 21, I will get a job, a place to live, and build lifetime relationships. I was WAY off. My life just seemed to spin further off the charts and before I knew it I was breaking it off with a guy and finding out I was pregnant, again.
That was my bottom, I hit it hard but it was my ruin. I kept thinking I had hit it earlier in my life but I was wrong by 21 my life had hit rock bottom and I was ready to start over. Doesn't mean I magically fixed my life, but I took steps to take control again. So here I am 8 years after I started to take control and the rebuilding is looking good. The people in my life are solid foundations and my kids are my future :)
